Middle aged man who is discovering what he always knew.

Married for over 20 years. Unable to perform sexually within the marriage or with any woman for over 15 years. But men have always been a turn on for me and obviously as I have gotten older and more real with myself - looking at and/or chatting with (casual, playful, or sexual) with men has become the only time I feel ? authentic.

I did struggle with “am I a crossdresser” because there was a time when I enjoyed that world until I realized I was only doing it to attract men. And the conversations that ended up just being two men talking were by far the sweet spot. So, crossdressing has stopped and I am here. Just a middle aged man that has never really been with any men…but opening himself up.

Am I gay? That question is one that I’ve never allowed myself to ask. But I’ve never asked it because I know the answer. And just recently I am able to admit.

Yes, I am gay. I am not bi. I don’t look at women at all ever. The thought of being with a woman was something I feel gross about tbh and have for quite some time.

I’m totally virgin but I’m 1000% a bottom. I absolutely love top men. Do I like to have cyber or just chat…yes to both. Feel free to message.

So, it’s all new but here I am. Middle aged gay, never been with a man, complete submissive bottom who is excited about diving into his life…I would say new but this has been me all along.

5’8”
180lbs
Brown Hair and Eyes